At the Moment

I could have told you that would happen
I'm like that even with short visits places sometimes. The good news is you have your own space and outside and most of the time I leave the house around 7am so depending on your work schedule you could have the house to yourself anyway

ATM-I'm trying to get up the nerve to email an inquiry about an apartment.

I have never lived alone.

I've lived at home, I lived with two people, then I lived with my girlfriend (yes, I really did have one once.....not that there's anything wrong with that), I lived with 3 people, then a stretch of living alone for the last 8 years, and now I'm back to a roommate......who is rockin by the way. Some people can't live alone and never do.

I know my brother is still adjusting, he's 37 and it's the first time he's ever lived alone.

Katy, it never hurts to ask or to look, it doesn't require a lease for that part of it.

I think I would've liked it....now I guess I hope I don't, because that would probably mean something horrible happened to my family....but somedays, I wouldn't mind testing it out....living alone...not horrible things happening to the fam.

<cough cough> what's with all the dust in here? <wiping out cobwebs> Wow, this place has gotten pretty dirty, not enough going on to stir up the dust around here. I've been bad about checking in here since I'm usually on my phone instead of the actual computer, it makes me wonder if they have done any kind of mobile set up...hmmm, I think the admin of the site should get off his duff and check it out, now who is that again?.........oh yeah, that's me.

Oh guess what, while I was gone, they did create a mobile version. Not really happy with it, but it's better than nothing!

Hi pete

Hi ya Katy! How are ya?

sorry, forgot to sign Bethany out before I posted. Let's try this again....

Hi ya Katy!!!

wait! Dude! are you really Bethany?! I knew it!

Pete, stop impersonating me!

Coming here makes me sad...it reminds me of how much I've lost...everyone has moved on....made other friends....had new adventures....created new goals....and Im still stuck...in a job I hate and cant move away from....in a little bedroom in the back corner of my parents house in a town cut off from the rest of civilization...and rose is gone and I don't have anyone to talk to anymore and I miss her...and I miss everyone and hearing about their days and their lives

Oh Katy
I'm sorry, honey.

Oh, it's ok. I was just having a poor me moment

I miss this forum too. The other forum that I used to frequent, a jazz one, is also dying out. I understand why - it's so easy to get spread too thin on the internet, with different forums, different groups of friends, keeping track of all the places you frequent so that you don't miss anything. It' easier to just all congregate in one place like Facebook. But the fact of the matter is, you can't be as intimate on Facebook (or at least I don't feel like being as intimate there) as you can on a forum like this.

Sorry you're not feeling so great about things right now, Katy. I'm feeling a little stuck at the moment too. But I'm reading a book that's helping me. It's reminding me about the virtue of hope, and how hoping is different than wishing. Here's a quote from it that I'm trying to remember when I am feeling stuck:

"Hoping is an openness to the breaking in of what is radically new and unanticipated. Wishing, on the other hand, is the illusory extension into the future of what we want at the present moment. Wishing is not an openness to the future but is oriented entirely from the present. In order to hope, on the other hand, we need to relativize our wishing and open ourselves to the prospect of being surprised by the radically new."

My problem is that I do a lot of wishing, but not a lot of hoping. Wishing puts my immediate and specific desires at the forefrunt (never good). Hoping looks to an unknown future and allows God to be in charge, and allows me to be open to surprise and to new (and unplanned for) directions for my life. Wishing gets us stuck in a mindset of past and present. Hoping keeps us future-oriented, so we don't get stuck.

Hoping isn't just about the future, though. But by always looking forward to the future, it keeps us on a moving path, always growing closer to God, growing more into our true selves. And even though hoping focuses on looking to the future, the openness that it requires and creates infects (in a good way) our present by keeping us in a state of growth and anticipation, and not allowing us to ever settle for tangible "solutions" to our current situations (like a relationship, financial stability, a new job, house, etc.).

Anyway, I'm not sure if that's helpful to others, but I'm finding it really important for myself at the moment.

Katykc wrote:Coming here makes me sad...it reminds me of how much I've lost...everyone has moved on....made other friends....had new adventures....created new goals....and Im still stuck...in a job I hate and cant move away from....in a little bedroom in the back corner of my parents house in a town cut off from the rest of civilization...and rose is gone and I don't have anyone to talk to anymore and I miss her...and I miss everyone and hearing about their days and their lives

well, I vote we revitalize the forum.... My life isn't actually too much different....I still feel like you are some of the best friends I will ever have! I miss everyone a lot, and think it is time to seriously plan another get together....I need to get away....my fear of flying does get in the way though....

Come to Cincinnati again